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 01/APRIL/2026

Dear Diary,

what a shitty day to start journalising, before everything let me give an introduction what all this is for, this website and obviously blogs are dedicated to my one and only friendship bond @Thomas. there is gonna my daily blogs i know bit scary to put all this online but no one knows us LOL.

I am writing as chill as possible no AI, no grammerly so you better judge my spelling and grammars, 

So shitty day , yes I mean i applied for a master i got the admission but obviously i couldnt afford so i applied for scholorship as well, i was so invested and so kinda confident like i am strong candidate but hey ho, rejected. 

idk how to react sometime feels like i should cry but i did whatever i can and tbf these kind of stuff is not in my destiny so i am not much bothered but i am kinda scared and tired of my fututre yk i dont wanna work. but we will get there. 

i spent quite a good time in library today, it was productive but still not confident about my submission

and right now i am so pressurized my sexuality, likes, dislikes, friendships, family, place to live, submission, part time job, full time job, business, career planning.

so its just messsed up i am not enjoying my life i am just breathing but tbf my life makes me laugh its a joy not the joy of what life giving me but the joy moments, i start smiling at people its nice feeling. 


idk what todays gonna happen i mean nothing really i am hoping for but all the best,


you got this love xx

01.01 am

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